I'm exhausted and really should be in bed instead of on the computer, but I just had to get on here for a minute to say that I am incredibly touched by the various comments made today in regards to our daughter. I received unexpected comments in person, on the phone, and online by those that are thinking about Olivia with her birthday coming up. I try not to expect much from people, as I know most will not remember it. And then even if they do, they may not think to say something -- or rather go out of their way to say anything. I hate that it is that way, but it is what it is. While Livy's 1st Birthday in Heaven was filled with incredible amounts of love and support (we were so blessed by that!), we never even got mention of Jake on his 1st Birthday in Heaven, let alone mention of him around any other time. So through the years, I've tried to protect myself and put up a guard so as not to be disappointed when the silence is present during special dates. However, here we are...in the midst of reliving those horrible moments 2 years ago when I wasn't feeling movement, when I received the horrible/awful news while James was away, when we finally held her in our arms, and then when we buried her...and I'm receiving little words of recognition and remembrance of our sweet baby girl along the way...
I can't thank you enough. It means the world to us when people go out of their way to recognize her (and her siblings). Not only have people recognized her, but they have also recognized the pain and hurt that we are feeling and will forever feel.
Seriously...thank you.
The pain never goes away and it is so much more acute on their birthdays. I'm so glad that people have been mentioning Olivia and acknowledging her and her birthday. I wish they had done it for Jake. It must have been very disappointing, lonely and sad that they didn't (and still don't I assume). I'll be thinking of you in the upcoming days (and on September 4th and the days leading up to Jake's birthday. )
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ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that Olivia's memory lives on through other people and their thoughtful words and actions. Sometimes it can't be helped that our lost children's names and special dates are met with silence or are sometimes forgotten. Some people do have their own issues in life to deal with after all. I think it's up to us, their parents, to get people to remember, even if for a day, the memories of their sweet short lives and how they meant to us.
ReplyDeleteRemembering Olivia, Jake and Jordan with you. I hope the presence of Baby Samuel has eased the remembering of her day somewhat. <3
Times like these I wish we could just wear signs letting everyone know that a significant date is approaching and that words of kindness and love should be shared. I hope these upcoming days are as gentle as possible. I will be remembering Olivia and thinking about your beautiful family. Sending love your way <3 <3 <3
ReplyDeleteThinking about you guys! The pain will never go away, although it may get easier. I am sure Sam will make you smile and help ease your hurting!
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