Friday, December 3, 2010

As We Edge Closer...

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away."

Revelation 21:4

I can't wait for the day to come when this will happen!

This verse is the first thing you see when you open up the memorial book from Livy's funeral. The reason I had even opened it up was to get the names of those who attended, by my mom's request. With Olivia's 1st Birthday/Angelversary edging closer, she wants to invite those that attended the funeral to a balloon release in Liv's honor -- so sweet of her!

I haven't looked at this book in quite some time, and opening it just brings back so many memories -- and tears. James said it should be called, "The Book Of Tears." I think I agree...

I don't remember too many specifics of that day. At the time, I was trying my hardest not to completely lose it, and in turn, didn't retain much of what was going on around me. Sometimes I wish that we would've had a video recording so that I could look back and watch it and observe it when things aren't so fresh. When looking at the list of names, I had no idea how many people attended to pay their respects. 90 for our baby girl!

After going through all of the names, I flipped to the back where I had written down all of the gifts we had received -- flowers, monetary gifts to help with the funeral costs, blankets and figurines, etc. It's really touching to see how many people reached out to us during such a tragic time.

I think as each day passes, and we edge closer to Livy's Birthday, it's just going to get harder. I wish so badly that she was here...


  1. I wish she was here with you, too. I love the verse you shared, so true. Sending you lots of hugs tonight!

  2. I wish she was there with you too. Tears being shed here for you girl....I don't know that there is anything I or anyone could do to ease your pain...but know I'm thinking of you and praying for God's gentle arms to wrap around you!

  3. Your mom is the best for organizing a balloon release for Livy's 1st year anniversary and inviting people to come. I love it when grandparents take the initiative to honor and remember their grandchildren this way. We will be thinking of you and James as you edge closer to that 1-year mark. (((HUGS)))

  4. How sweet of your mom. So many people love and remember Olivia. I wish she was in your arms <3 Thinking about you and sending you loving thoughts and prayers.