Tuesday, December 14, 2010

We Made It...

Well, here we are...we've made it to the one year mark of saying goodbye to our baby girl. It is officially Olivia's 1st Birthday In Heaven. Crazy...

Unlike many, I think the days leading up to it were easier than the actual day. I guess when I look back, it was the same when we hit the one year mark of losing Jake, too. I suppose we all handle this big 1 year Angelversary differently. The anticipation of getting there was easier than waking up and realizing we're there.

All I can think about is the fact that we should be decorating for a party and setting a cake in front of her so that she can demolish it -- seeing that huge grin on her face and enjoying that time with little Olivia. Instead, we're in SC preparing to see pictures of a balloon release back in Indy and will be spending time together -- just the two of us -- remembering Livy with a little cake that we bought for her.

It just sucks. I saw someone respond to my mom's FB status in honor of Livy and what today represents saying, "God never wastes our grief." Well, what does He do with it?

While I sit here totally bummed out, I can't help but smile over the number of people planning on attending the balloon release at Liv's grave. It's just amazing the response that we got when we put it out there and announced that we were having one. Last I heard, the count was up to 98 people. WOW! To know that there are that many people wanting to show their support for our family...it's very touching.

Well, it's been awhile since I've been on the blog due to traveling out here to be with James. I have much to cover -- both the big MFM doc appointment that I had last Friday as well as our trip to Charleston where we held our own little balloon release. I suppose I'll get to that and how Liv's 1st Birthday actually went (once I get out of this mood) later...

Until then...

We love you, Liv, and wish so badly that you were here! I hope you're having an amazing time up there with your friends at Snapplebee's celebrating your 1st year...


  1. Happy 1st heavenly Birthday Liv!!!!

    Thinking of you today, I know it isn't easy ((HUGS)). May your heart be filled with peace.

  2. I have been thinking about you all day. I hope that Olivia's 1 year angelversary is as gentle as possible. To celebrate our children's birthdays from so far from Heaven just isn't fair. I know she must be looking over her family with such love and pride. She is remembered and loved and always will be. Sending big hugs your way! <3 <3 <3

  3. Hugs and love to beautiful Olivia today....(yesterday) and always. Happy heavenly birthday, sweet girl!

  4. Sorry I'm a little late. :( But here's to remembering Olivia with you and James on her 1st year anniversary. Fly happy sweet little girl! Sending you lots of love and hugs. <3 <3 <3

  5. I am so glad your family is able to support you in that way with the balloon release. I'm sure it's makes a sad reality just a bit brighter. Thinking of you and sending hugs!