Tuesday, January 26, 2010

There's always tomorrow...

Well, glad this day is over. It started out so well, minus the lack of sleep thanks to a certain basset hound getting me up several times throughout the night. While laying there wide awake, I got the ring on my phone letting me know James was online. We ended up talking for nearly two hours, which was fantastic. He was anxious to hear how the appointment was going to go, as was I. I had my final appointment with my OB a few hours after we talked, but unfortunately, nothing really came of it. We got the test results back from Olivia, only to find out she was as healthy as could be. (We pretty much already knew that.) Not a single thing was wrong with her, or me for that matter. So we were left with no reason as to why this happened. Before the appointment was over, Dr. Herman asked me again if I had any interest with speaking to the counselor linked to his office, but I declined. We left it at that, and I went on my way.

After I got to the car, I sat and read Liv's report. I wanted so badly to blame someone for what happened, but knew there was no blame to place. It was a mystery as to why this crap happened, and we'll never get any closure on it. Poor Obadiah felt the effects of all of this, as he pretty much stayed in the closet the whole afternoon hiding. He's just about done with my emotional responses to losing Liv and has lost all ability to comfort me, so he just goes to the closet to sleep. It's kind of funny, but sad at the same time.

On a brighter note, this video was posted on Facebook earlier and definitely made me laugh. Gotta love Peyton Manning...Granted, it still doesn't top the SNL sketch he did several years ago...


Well, off to go take some Unisom and hope for a better day tomorrow...

2 comments:

  1. Pris,
    not to bring up bad memories or thoughts but did the Dr's say anything about your body or if you have some underlying condition that makes it hard for your body to carry the babies? again i'm not trying to be negative about you just trying to make sense of it all. Miss you, Rachel Brooks

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  2. Nothing. They said there's no reason for this. All the tests came back normal on both Liv and myself. Besides, after the other two losses, I was tested for everything under the sun, and I'm fine. So we're just left with having one unexplainable loss after another. Dr. Herman encouraged us to try again after 3 months, but obviously that won't happen since James is an ocean away...not to mention, we're not sure if we'll even bother trying again. We'll see what the future holds...

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